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Fallin' at 6:49 AM

And I've never loved someone, the way I love you.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY IN ADVANCE ELLEEEEE!

miss you loads, love:)

And yes i know, you're in the middle of some sponataeneous awesome holiday far away from this little lonely friend of yours. Haven't seen you in ages, been awesome talking to you again!


ANYWAY. THIS IS TOTALLY LIKE. THE BESTTTTT PICTURE I COULD FIND TO DESCRIBE FRIDAY 7PM LEARNING LAB CLASSES. which are no more, but that ain't the point.

Sentosa-ed today with Adelia, Huiling, Glenda today. Burnt a hole in my pocket, which clearly won't be sewn up for a while. DAMMIT I NEED $$$.

But it was nice:)














in subway! Adelia, Huiling, Me with our bottle of beer:D


Beauty in walking away. at 9:02 AM




You see, I'm the bravest girl
You'll ever come to meet
Yet, I shrink down to nothing
At the thought of someone really seeing me
I think my heart is wrapped around
And tangled up in winding weeds

But, I don't wanna go on living
Being so afraid of showing
Someone else my imperfections
And even though my feet are trembling
Every word I say comes stumbling
I will bare it all
Watch me unfold
Unfold, unfold

These hands that I hold behide my back
Are bound and broken from my own doing
And I can't feel anything anymore
I need a touch to remind me
I'm still real



You can't flag a cab on the highway! at 6:12 AM

Thank you, Lord,
for the trials that come my way.
In that way I can grow each day
as I let you lead.
And I thank you, Lord,
for the patience those trials may bring.
In that process of growing,
I can learn to care.

But it goes against the way I am
to put my human nature down
and let the Spirit take control of all I do.

'Cause when those trials come,
my human nature shouts the thing to do;
and God's soft prompting
can be easily ignored.

I thank you, Lord,
with each trial I feel inside,
that you're there to help,
lead and guide me away from wrong.
'Cause you promised, Lord,
that with every testing,
that your way of escaping is easier to bear.

But it goes against the way
I am to put my human nature down
and let the Spirit take control of all I do.

'Cause when those trials come,
my human nature shouts the thing to do;
and God's soft prompting
can be easily ignored.

I thank you, Lord,
for the victory that growing brings.
In surrender of everything
life is so worth while.
And I thank you, Lord,
that when everything's put in place,
out in front I can see your face,
and it's there you belong.


This was definitely my favourite hymn in IJ. I miss morning prayers and the hymn every morning! Ah sad.

Adelia: YEAH omg he sucked!:( haha yes k mosquito wing soup! damn coool!
Anupa: FRIDAY MATH CLASS FTW:) I LOVE OUR CLASS TOOOO OMG
Nick: And that is totally beyond awesomeeee!
Grace A: i totally miss aep k! haha and thanks, i definitely have:)

Anyway, past few days have been nice:) Saturday went for Faith Hope and Love 3. IJ band and guitar at cjc! Goodness knows why its called THREE since last year's was called Fantasia! kay whatevs, met cyn at 5.30 at bishan. bought flowers and cookies and ate at subwayyy!then bussed down to cj, bumped into qis and her friend summer!

Queued outside for the longest time, met cyn's friend, some sji dude called bryan and met shari toooo!

When we finally got seats, Odelia and Lin Ying were behind us!:) omg havent seen those people in agessss! then we sat through one or two pieces, where we mostly spent spotting people and then i started falling asleeeep:o so me and cyn started eating our star shaped lollipops!:D it was funny coz taking out the wrappers were so noisyyy!

So that kept me awake! Then was the interval! Everyone went to mingleee:) fun, grace neo screamed when she saw me. damn funny!

Then the guitarists played, band again. they played the ponyo theme song! HAHA:D thennn more camwhoring, then me cyn linying odelia decide to go eat prata!

So we crossed over to the other side. and walked to catch a cab. and realised we were on the highway. so we had desperate attempts to catch cabs! amusing like hell man:) went damnnn high. and then finally this nice uncle swerved damn sharply to pick us up.

After a moment of wondering if he was stopping for us, we RAN and piled in. then it took us a while to figure out where we were going! sooo down to prata hut, the realised we could've taken a straight bus there-.-

Ran into shari and her friends tooo, ate and laughed too much. miss you people loads man. xoxo lin ying, odelia and cyn:) then cabbed home, nearly 11. my mum was calling like mad. crazy. but i didnt get into too much trouble!

Yeappp then sunday, (which was 3 minutes ago) did warden duty. I was okay with it until mervelle started worrying. omg i swear she always starts worrying then I GET WORRIED TOO. haha mass was amusing, we were all sitting together, a row of red people!

So yeap i kinda accidentally kept hitting people's knees with the stick thing. or at least the bag attached to it. coz i wasnt used to it being full of coins! i collected a lot of $50 bucks:D haha michael was sad coz he only got one fifty note. thennn went to town with mervelle, chris,kris and andre. we ate at sakae sushiiii and i blew 18 bucks. seriously. my meal was ELEVEN. but andre stupidly split the total dcost five ways so me and mervelle ended up paying for food we didnt eat. omg i dont know HOW i am gonna tell my mum i have no money. really. i have two bucks in my wallet. and i'm going out this week. HOWWWW! omg:/

yes well, it was funny and spastic and awesome. went around shopping with mervelle while we forced the guys to wait at starbucks! then homed!

ah kay life is awesome right now. pure unadulterated smiles:)

picturesss, in random order!





CATCHING CABS ON THE HIGHWAY! that blur next to me would be lin ying!:D
Rochelleee the emceee!

Odelia, Lin ying, Cyn, me!




Kids, play nice now. at 7:47 AM

i don't know why i keep talking about it.
when this gigantic part of me wants to just put it behind me.
today was fucked up.

Saturday
got scolded by my mum for going out too much. something that seems to be happening to a lot of people recently.and then went for dinner with robyn chris kris mervelle. nyny!:)

Sunday
Vans confi, met erina cyn rachelle edward. We kinda played truth or dare in mass, which ended up being more truth or truth coz we couldnt do a dare! Yes i know, pretty terrible. heh. then went to eat at subway with erina edward rachelle. i guess it was nice coz i met sooo many people i didnt know were there:)

Monday
wasted my life:)

Tuesday
old folks home visit, kinda cute:) hahah it was funny and spastic. lunched with andre and kris then went down to kap with kris to meet chris and mervelle.sat there talking and stuff. and then they arranged all the warden duty stuff with people.it was nice. robyn came down to crash for about an hour before her driver came to pick her to bring her to the airport. lucky girl. she's gonna bring me chocolate:D

yeap k whatevs, no mood to blog but i just gotta do something to stop myself from thinking. besides the stuff that actually happened and the people i was actually with, who were awesome btw, it just sucked. like i got calls and stuff in the past few days. and then figured stuff out. and then thought too much. and then realised that it's got me so fucked up and i need to get a grip once and for all. just shoot me dammit.

i need to forget. i need to let it go.

i realised i'm drawing and writing again. i guess its just a defense mechanism, to keep myself from falling apart. Gosh, how i missed doing art in aep, this just made me feel again. damn.


Find me at the end of the rainbow. at 11:29 PM

Tell me these are not the most awesome people you've ever seen, and I'll slap you.




Alright I love you people:)
Like much much love x267654345765432

I think learning lab's management is even madder than us. And by that I mean actually clinically insane. Really,splitting up a class like us?! How could you do such a thing! Clearly, they are crazy jealous and deprived. And mrs wee admitted to loving our class a lot just before we left. So we're gonna have a class outing when Ariel comes back!:)

I think it's gonna suck, being in any other class but our own. I've grown so dammit attached to these people. These awesome people who surprised me with stuff for my birthday when it totally wasn't necessary. But I liked it all the sameee.

okay scratch that, I LOVED it all the same(:

I'm gonna miss our class loads man, and tuition isn't ever gonna be as fun I suppose:( I'm gonna miss how we'd bring food up every week though it wasn't allowed, our stupid conversations and deaf people. And how Mrs wee would join in too!

Ah gosh I'm just making myself sadder. Oh well, i suppose its true, all good things come to an end.


ps, those of you with access to my private private blog, no there's nothing wrong with your com, i made all my posts completely private. So, you can only see my most recent post. And yes I know it's annoyingly emo.




For every moment I'm denying. at 6:46 PM

My birthday party was nice(:

Really.

I was so scared that the rain would screw it up. but i prayed and prayed and it was okay:) heh. Yeah so at like, 4.15 Qis and Kylie arrived, super early and it was still raining, just not as heavily! So went down and opened the function room then picked them up. Left them to decorate at the function room when Geraldine came and followed me back home to pick up more stuff. Then when I was walking home, Edward and Adelia came and I was a bit worried about letting them go in on their own since they didnt know Kylie and Qis! Yeah so we rushed backkk and I was going to the bus stop to see if anyone else was there and then in walk Erina, Dylan and Edward. Since Erina was smart enough to remember her way around the estate!:)

They sat there and played cards-.- Then Zanyang then Marie camee, then CW and Jasmine who were soaked. And Huiling and Glenda(WHO TOLD ME SHE WAS SICK),heh Adelia Geraldine Qis Kylie were all in the toilet filling water balloons!:) Finally, by the time everyone had arrived and were in the room, i chased them out coz the guys and erina were hooked on playing cards.

At first, the girls threw them around a little. And the guys disappeared around the side and when i went to see, they were all in the pool. And got scolded by the security guard for being in the pool with their normal non-swimming clothes on. Ah whatevs, so they got out of the water.

Then the real pelting-each-other-with-waterbombs started. Kinda split into three, the guys (only 4 of them since Donavon hadn't come yet), some of us girls,(Jasmine, Marie, Erina, Huiling, me, Qis, Kylie) and the other group of girls who just didnt wanna get wet. (Glenda, Adelia, Geraldine) After a while we were kinda running EVERYWHERE around the clubhouse. That was the fun:) Like, we finished most of the water bombs pretty fast, then everyone took water bombs in their shirts and ran:D then geraldine, adelia and glenda were camping in the girls toilet, and the guys were trying to pelt them with water balloons from outside. At which point we all ran out of water balloons. Then Jasmine Marie Kylie Erina Qis Huiling and me were all in the jacuzzi. And I went and got more water balloons for us since i had two and a half more packets. (see, constant usage leaves you with extras that come in very handy:D) Then they realised you could actually fill up the balloons in the jacuzzi from the jets! So, being nice, i gave the guys the half packet, which was barely half, more like 20? So they tried to fill it in the basin next to the fuction room, which was kinda fail coz there was not enough pressure! :O and there was a frog stuck in a very small hole which kept trying to get out. HAHA. saddd. so the guys ran off to the toilet and i rejoined the people in the jacuzzi. then got scolded again coz the guys were still trying to hit the girls in the toilet. and so because of that, the girls barred the door even though someone else needed to use it. Yeap so i chased them all away from there. SORRY FOR BEING SO NAGGY ABOUT THAT:( i wouldnt have cared if you played there, just that my sister kept nagging me to get rid of you all.

Sooo then when the guys came armed with their water balloons to attack the few of us at the jacuzzi, we were ready too. coz we had unlimited supply. HAHA. so basically it was throw at them, they throw back at us. until finally they ran out. so we just had fun trying to hit them:D then i went and got my last packet of water bombs. HEHEHE. amusing shittzxz. then more throwing at the guys, who got smart and just found big plastic bags.

then as we were kinda getting out, cw picked up jasmine and dumped her in the water. HAHA. so i went to go help her out along with huiling i think. then suddenly edward threw a big plastic bag at me. filled with water. and i nearly fell in. but didnt:D until of course he came and pushed me in since i was already at the edge. i mean really, HOW CAN YOU DROWN THE BIRTHDAY GIRL!:( hahah but it was funny luh:) gave me a good excuse to pick a target. which i forgot about soon enough:D then the security guard was an idiot and took pictures of us-.- so i went back to check to see if my parents had called me. which, thankfully, they hadnt. but it was ten to 7 and pizza was coming at 7. so i told them to finish up the water bombs and get changed.

pizza dude called and me and glenda and cw went down to pick it up. altogether, $255.41. expensive pizza eh? hahah i'd ordered 10 pizzas and side orders so it was kinda reasonable. My parents came then with the cake!:D Then i went back to my house with erina to change. And realised. MY PARTY BRINGS PEOPLE TOGETHER! i mean like, everyone made friends with kylie and qistina coz of the water bombs right!:) (heh and other stuff:D) yes it was nice talking to erina till we got back to the function room. At which point i realised that everyone was waiting for me to start eating! :O and then they asked me if i was gonna say grace. and i was like, "But most people here arent catholic/christian" and looked around. Most people said nevermind that, and qis was like " My dear, I go to a catholic school and attend mass with you all, do you think i mind!" hahah it was, a nice surprise, to say the least. I totally hadnt expected that:) Its just really nice to know i guess? That my friends are that accepting? Idk something like thaat, and yeah so i said grace.

Watched step up 2, had a chair squeezed in between Huiling and Edward for me, Cyn and Angela turned up and we ate a lot of foooood:D then at the end, got erina to help me set up the pinata, but everyone else saw and so most people came to help me! it was all the girls so most of the grumbles were along the lines of "shouldnt the guys be doing this!" because we mostly had to move stacks of chairs. damn funny:D then donavon came, straight from training!D: of all places! Everyone kinda sat around watching step up 2, then we played pass the parcel with something my sister had JUST wrapped in newspaper. HAHA. failll, got dylan and erina to do 7 wonders:D which was kindaa mean, then after that it was just boringish. then people started leaving:(

Found the sparklers and hair spray and light sticks, sprayed Donavon's hair bright pink:D then played sparklers! And then arranged the sparklers in a star shape on the floor, lit them, then sprayed the entire thing with the hair spray!:D and because the spray is flammable, the entire thing was on fire! so we had pink floor with black burns from the sparklers. kinda cool, actually:D (as long as we dont get caught)

It was pretty awesome, coz Mervelle Chris and Kris all crashed then, after choir! Between Kris and Chris, my cake went from half left, to less than a quarter. Damn pro right! Then Kris, Chris, Mervelle, Don and Edward helped me clean uppp. And Edward and Chris were at war, and i got caught in it and had a bouncy ball attack my cheek bone:(

Then Mervelle, Chris and Kris watched me open presents. HAHA. And gave comments. Yes, I love their gift too. Puma bag!:D:D:D:D

I think overall the day was absolutely awesome. Pictures up soon:)

Then on my bday itself, got totally spammed with messages. Which i kinda like a lot. Birthday message spammage makes me feel lovedddd! Went to watch 2012 with cyn, angela and marian! then bowling and subway with cyn!:) Lovessss.


at 8:55 AM

ABSOLUTE AWESOME-NESS INDEED:):):)

i know i got cold feet before the party, what with the rain and the people being bitchy about the function room. but i am so dammit glad it happened:)

I fell in love with today, though it had it's annoying moments. I'd blog more but i am so amazingly drained. I just showered again so i feel like i just got pushed in the pool again! HAHA:) kk i shall blog about it tmw? Or as soon as photos from cyn and erina and olanda are up!